THE LAW OF ATTRACTION AND ME

I wrote this in 2019 and the same is true today.  Yes I'm older, not sure about wiser but I know more about myself and I am more comfortable in my own skin... still got a ways to go.

"As an advocate for the LAW OF ATTRACTION and THE SECRET for many many years I am finally coming to the conclusion that I am "TRYING TOO HARD".  I say my affirmations daily, every minute of every day is all about thinking about the LAW and what I can do to better myself but in actual fact, it's giving me a headache.

How can I be a better person, to try and improve myself when I'm totally exhausted thinking about trying too hard?  None of it makes any sense at all.  

Here I am at 64 - divorced (and loving it - being alone for me is never lonely, just the way I like it.  I have two wonderful kids, and now two beautiful grandchildren, I have a home & no longer a mortgage, I have a job that affords me the best of everything and I get paid well.  I need to STOP and just realise that I don't have to keep trying so hard.  To stop overthinking everything and just enjoy the ride.

SOMETHING WONDERFUL IS GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME TODAY.... this is what I tell myself every morning but, in fact, the expectation is way too big and I wait for it to the point of being upset when it doesn't happen.  I have to let go of the expectations and just realise that it is a wonderful day.  I am enjoying myself and that I am blessed.

I put so much pressure on myself that I forget to just "stop and smell the roses".  In fact, I think on the way home tonight I might just buy myself some roses.  Just to appreciate the little things."

Since I wrote this .. I lost both my parents, a blow but they are now in a better place.  My job, while still paying well didn't offer me a payrise, instead they offered a 9 day fortnight and as I work in the construction industry as an admin where they get a 9 day fortnight I am not complaining in the least.  I wake every morning asking "I'D LIKE TO SEE A MIRACLE TODAY" and most mornings I'm offered a beautiful sunrise (yes that is a miracle). I'm healthy and I have nothing to complain about.  Life is good. What more can a woman ask for? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING - Thanks to the Universe.